31.12.2009...Last day in 2009

I want get myself out of this empty room
The feeling inside there makes me feel numb
Facing PC...but heart is mumbling,that's why i came to here.

Perhaps,the best way to feel nothing is forget about the coming of 2010
haha...the more i feel right now...the more pains i gain inside my mind.../.\

Friends here are not the same as friends at hometown
Honestly i feel that pathetic feeling
Don't why...but it just happens.

Well,i won't stuck at there doing nothing in the room
I'll try to find my way out.

Soon,life gets busy...Am i well prepared for that??
haha..Hope so^.^

Wanna share a little secret with you here...hehe
Those are things i wanted to do right now at the end of 2009...

1.Singing
2.Relaxing
3.Watching movie with loved one (even though I don't have yet)
4.Eating with family
5.Cleaning and decorating
6.Day-dreaming
7.Doing nothing
8.Hope 2mr don't have class (i know it's impossible,JB no holiday for new year..T.T)
9.Heal my waist asap
Lastly,hope to receive many many wishes for coming 2010..hehehe=P

李圣杰的抱歉

忘了我们是在什么时候
选择放开彼此的手
忘了我们为了什么理由
才会让你一个人走

为什么总失去后才懂得
才发现你对我最重要
为什么到后来我才又聽說
你最爱的人还是我

不想妥協 不想眷戀 我想你在身边

能不能够让我们重来一遍
你是否对我还有相同感觉
我不想要再对自己抱怨 也不想再狼狈
能不能够让我们回到从前
回到那一天当我们还相恋
你说过要陪我走到永远 但你却说抱歉

Whatever it takes...

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
and I know what's at stake
I'm who i am
I'll always keep my faith in me and believe
One day,one day
I will succeed!

~好不了的伤疤~A wound that can't be heal

从前的回忆打乱了心跳
常说 我会让你感到很骄傲
如果我真的那么好 为什么你不要
其实爱我只是你开的玩笑
你不会真的给我个城堡
童话里的王子我不是主角
你所谓的幽默我接受不了
明白爱我只是你随口的玩笑
誓言像裹着糖衣的毒药
当你的温柔我再也戒不掉
这次留的伤疤永远好不了

RM 50 for my philosophy

This is the first time i spend that much in order to get what i wanted...
I bought 4 pcs of mini brief->it costs me around RM 25...
and 2 pcs of boxer which cost me around RM 25 too...
After all,my RM 50 gone for those items...
T.T

I HATE Maggy Instant Noodle!!!

Yea,I'm freaky hate Maggy Mee....
I super duper triple Hate it!!!
If you like it every much,you better keep mum about it,don't let me know...
or else I will "cuci" you!!!

Urghh....

Fish

I've never realized that blogspot can somehow be a place to feed fishes,
But today,yes,just today...i realized that...
so there are 6 fishes in my pool...
1 black in colour,
1 yellow in colour,
4 red in colour...
Guess what...
That's my family...lol
Loving it^^

Perhaps...this is Life

Walking on a very long beach really makes us feel bad

It's more severe when it's accomplished with direct radiation of sun
Wow...so hot and tiring...
While I was walking on the beach
Following behind the person in front of me...
I watched the footsteps left on the sand
After all,it hits me on something...
A truth in our lives...

Well...it's 2am in the morning...and i'm a bit sleepy already...
Can i make it simple without words
What hit me at that time was....



Human walk so long to obtain/maintain/create, and etc something...
But a shapeless form wave can wash away all at once...
Clearing all the memories/achievements left on the sand...
Become like this...



So,what else we can do to avoid it?
It's easy actually...
Just stay farther away from the wave (the boundary)
Avoiding it to reaching us
That's the way to make things right.

Once we've made out something we want
Just need to keep it up and well
Don't ever let a small deal ruins our Happy Life.

Memory is hard to build
Memory is hard to buried inside of us
But it can go away in a short while
Remember that...:)
*to whom read my blog*

Hope you guys get what I wanna tell...
If you don't...
Just let me know,I'll explain to you...haha=p

NitezzZ.

I was His,He was Me

I was his
He was me
If there's somebody calling me on
He's the one

Here(to make thing proper), I'd like to declare that I'm not gay
Don't ever get it wrong:)

{Those sentences were adapted from Robbie's song
but I changed the words and make it as mine}
lolz=='"

Actually,It's related to my left thigh that injured lately
It (my thigh) was mine,and for sure I was his...
When nothing goes wrong,
I feel nothing....as normal
But when somebody calling me inside...(the pain he causes me to feel)
He's the one...
Crazy isn't?!

Hope I don't need to go for surgery in future:)

High Above Me

Urghh...
I'm not a pretty guy...
forget it...

Once,I read her blog...
she's really blows me away...

After all,I realized I'm really nothing...
I'm just a normal person...
who just reached the state of knowing to crawl...
or perhaps walk...
or perhaps run...
or perhaps jump...
BUT not Fly...

I saw a lofty wall in front of me...
I know I still have to work a lot to get over it...
Coz' she's so High Above me~^^

~Lullaby~

Last night, just before i met Mr. Zhou,
I put on my earphones,
Hugging on my little small pillow
that i loved and need when i'm asleep.

The 1st song that came into my mind was "drowning",
So i hit on the button and I....
I start to feel the song again,
and I start to wonder and think...
Think back on the very first time in my life when i first fall in love,
and yet think and compare on present's me with gone's me.

The song fully fill each corner of my heart,
and reminds me on how I love her,
how she meant to me.
"Everytime I breathe I take you in
and my heart beats again
Baby I can't help it
you keep me drowning in your love
Everytime I try to rise above
I'm swept away by love
Baby I can't help it
you keep me drowning in your love."
But somehow,we both ended it up with nothing but heartbreaks.

It's been 2 years,9 months,and 5 days.
and I'm no longer the same as previous's me,
Time passes by,and i've learned to don't be A chip on my shoulder.

At this moment,another song came in.
I'm pretty sure you know this song:)
"Edge of desire"
Again,I was amazed and agreed with its lyric.
and just hope I'll be thinking like what's John feels.
"Love is really nothing
But a dream that keeps waking me
For all of my trying
You still end up dying
How can it be?"

"Don't say a word, just come over and lie here with me
'Cause I'm just about to set fire to everything I see
I want you so bad I'll go back on the things I believe
There I just said it, I'm scared you'll forget about me"

"So young and full of running,
All the way to the edge of desire
Steady my breathing, silently screaming,
"I have to have you now"
Wired and I'm tired
Think I'll sleep in my clothes on the floor
Maybe this mattress will spin on its axis and find me on yours"

John Mayer, indeed a beautiful person
coz' he utters beautiful words..=p
and his song really makes me feel wanted to love again
It's like...Love is Huge.

Now,I knew what made me so different from gone's me
and I do really want to go back to where I belong.

Slowly,I'm approaching Mr.Zhou...
Good Night=='zzZ

Meaning in Your Name

I'm falling apart,
I'm barely breathing with a broken heart...
that's still beating.
In the pain,
There is healing.
In your Name,
I find Meaning.

So I'm holding on,holding on,holding on,
Holding on to You...